Images of a Broken Light

You concern yourself too much.
The worries of the past haunt the future.
It's shackels are ever binding in it's fruitless love.
This star that shines with your hopes slowly fades.
The light grows dimmer and your hope wanes.
It's despair grasps your heart in a tight grip.
But the light still shines.
It travels a million miles a minute to reach it's destination.
It fights against gravity.
This light full of hope travels faster towards this Earth.
Doing everything it can to reach you.
Despair lies in your heart and you feel you cannot embrace this light.
It's too late.
This light has arrived and it shines on you.
In this light the memories of the past shine thru with a clarity that obscures all thought and reason.
Shrinking in fear of regret you try to pull away but the light is neverending.
Regret fills your heart but the true meaning of this light is to show you happiness.
Happiness does not reing in your heart completely.
Shadow and grief abide your hearts will.
You have let it be for far too long.
The strength of change overcomes it.
Happiness has been in your heart, it just needed to grow.
Time affects all aspects of the mind and the soul.
Healing will soon come.
Realizations will soon come.
And strength will remain in you, it has thus far in your journey.
No more regrets.
No more despair.
Embrace the light.
There has never been a life lived that has not had a happy moment.
A moment of pure joy.
A moment of laughter.
A moment of relentless profound love.
Regret will hold you back.
Embrace everything and move on.
The light will always be there to guide you.
"Limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns, it calls me on and on across the universe."

Hmmm...

So im sitting here trying to think of something to rant about or even bring up and i'm only finding myself thinking how things have calmed down as of late. The past couple of months were full of revelations, realizations and lessons that I won't soon forget! I feel myself growing as a person and I feel myself growing stronger and more understanding too, although I know I still have a ways to go.
The only problem i'm finding myself dealing with right now is the fact that I need a new job. Im soooo tired of working where I am right now. It's too much hard work, it's not rewarding and I get shit for pay! Sometimes I find myself thinking that it was a waster for me to go to school and getting my certification becuase I feel like i've forgotten everything! But I guess im the only person to blame for that, I just don't find myself finding the energy to study. I'm sure the cause of that is becuase I have to work soo much. But then I do have free time so I don't have any excuses and that means I have to stop complaining and do something about it. It's the only way my current situation will change.
You know im finding myself being able to find solutions to things a lot easier than I used to. I mean in the sense that before I just use to complain about things and then ignore it for a while and finally come up with the reason why im doing what im doing. I think that shows that im making progress doesn't it? It makes me confident in that I feel like im more capable of making it in life. :)
Well since I have the rest of the day, im gonna hit the books!

Intro

So im back on this blog site. I had a previous one but I can't remember the title to be able to retrieve it :( No worries though. I don't have much to say right now but im sure i'll have lots to say in the future! I gotta do laundry...