Musings Vol. 19

In this state of mind
I had a dream
A dream of a world I know I will never find
Confound to principles and rules
My dream does not soar
This reality I wish to escape
Will you come with me?
Seeking another world
Waiting for another dream
To what reaches of the universe will we traverse?
How far must we go to get there?
Will happiness be waiting for us?
As we wonder in awe of the universe around us
We continue our journey
Holding your hand, never letting go
You hold me closer ever still
Our souls intertwined in this journey
Through the struggles we face
We will become one
As my soul faces yours, we embrace one another
Looking into you, secrets unveiled
Dreams revealed
Wishes that were made
Hopes that were lost
I embrace you closer
I feel the pain and the sadness
And now on this journey we have traveled
My only wish
My true desire
Is to see you smile

Musings Vol. 18

Nostalgia plagues my mind with “what if’s?”
But now as life moves on, these “what if’s?” disappear
Gradually I move forward with time
Cautious at every step that I take
I cannot help but reach out for a hand to hold
Uncertainty and doubt plague my heart
Holding me back
I have dreams of the future
Yet I do not know what is to come
Unpredictability is ever present
I am scared
Look into my eyes and tell me what you see?
Fear treads within me
Doubt lingers about
The true strength of my soul has not awoken
Thru these tough times I wonder
Always wondering if I will make it
Always hoping to make it thru
I look to you
Will you hold me?
Can you comfort me and tell me it will be okay?
Lend me your strength
Give me your love and I will grow stronger
Although I keep hearing “you will be fine” I still doubt
I doubt the certainty of stability
I doubt the skills that I posses
But…
I have made it before right?
Had I not I would not be here…
What would you say to me?
Sometimes I wish things were a little different
But choices have been made that cannot be undone
And to that avail I move forward
Doubt lingering about
Uncertainty plaguing my heart
My mind unable to grasp my true strength
I ask again…
Will it be okay?
Will it be just like before?
Adversity makes a strong soul prevail…
Am I strong enough?