Life Vol. 59

Eight more days and the new year dawns upon us...
I have a strong feeling many things will change and our lives, if not my own, will change drastically. I'm already starting to see some changes around me... some for the better, others unfortunately for the worse. There is only so much we can do to prepare ourselves for what can come. We have to understand the choices we make, think and reflect on what we want. Life is the outcome of the consequences to the choices we make, we can only carve our own path by making the best choices we possibly can.
Somethings can be out of our hands but we can only deal with them the best we can when and if they come our way.
I will have to make several choices this coming year, some of which will be difficult to make and some of which will liberate me from the shackles that have binded me in the shadows. Change is an action that creates the course of our future. Many steps are taken, some are skipped and others are forgotten. As scary as it may seem and as drastic as these changes may come, we have to adapt and learn from the past. Change can be a correction of past mistakes or of choices in which we wish not to live our lives in a certain way. Looking at past mistakes helps me to make the choices for the future, better ones in hopes of making a better life for myself. Tough times will come and although we as human beings can falter in the face of despair, adversity is our greatest weapon against the odds. A strong will for better things, not only for yourself but for others as well, can carry you across the vast plains of the earth.
Hope can carry you on it's shoulders as long as you hold it in your heart.
Some people might say that hope is an emotion that helps us ignore reality in our times of great despair. But I think it helps us to keep going so that we may change that which is keeping us in the despair that is hindering us from a better future.
I look forward to change but also dread it for I will not always know what will come my way. I will not always know what choices to make. With so many possibilities in this world, there is only so much you can imagine that can happen. There are only so many roads you can travel in the life you live.
Knowing this I still persist in living the best way that I can. I keep going no matter the odds, no matter the situations... I always look for those moments that make life worthwhile.
There are so many things in this life to appreciate. There are so many people to love and cherish. Such a vast and huge world to explore and experience...
The only thing to do is live a honorable life and hold no regrets.

Musings Vol. 25

I find my way to you in this chilling cold
Your warmth gives me life once again
I felt dead inside
Cold to the touch
Your eyes illuminating my sky like stars
I find my way
I once had a love
But I dare not speak her name
Broken are the pieces of our hearts
Shattered on this floor where we said our goodbyes
Mending the wounds
I sow my heart with threads of fate
They intertwine my thoughts to yours
Fate it would seem is cruel
Bonds of the past well structured over time fall
Shattering forces tug at it as it comes crashing down
A fleeting thought in my mind that love was real
I come to you with wounds to mend
I said to myself “Never again”
A solemn vow I did not break
These feelings I have for you
I dare not hate
Love is eternal
Bonds can be broken
Wounds can be healed
But this love I have for you
It stole from me something I did not know was there
A single thought of happiness
A slight chance of adversity through love
It all came crashing down pulled by the threads of fate
I lash out in anger
I cry out in tears
I scream with regret
I hold myself in a cold embrace
I wait here with lingering thoughts
Waiting for the warmth I once felt in my heart
As it fades with time
My hopes fade along with it
I fall into regret
I remain still and listen
The beat of my heart stronger than before
Strength still remaining within me
I hold the hand of fate once again
Warm to the touch
I trust in myself once more
These feelings I vow I will not betray
This love I still feel…I will not let it slip away…