Life Vol. 60

I can’t believe how much has happened this year. It seems my struggles are getting harder but I do not give up. I left so many things untaken care of and they are all piling up, one by one drowning me…

We can all see our future ahead of us because of the choices that we make. If you decide to do something, you will know the outcome. Although there is unpredictability that plays a factor, mostly everything can be foreseen.

Now I’m sitting here on the verge of a BIG change and many choices will have to be made. Things will be revealed and relationships will change, I know that for a fact. There is nothing I can do but hold myself steadfast as I make the choices that are in front of me now. It’s a scary thing… change… but this change I hope will be for the better.

I am utterly hopeful for the changes that will come but I wish not to get my hopes up TOO high. I hate falling after hoping so much… Although there is uncertainty in the air, I welcome the change. Frankly I’m a little scared and you ask why? Because I will have to make a choice that I have been thinking about for a VERY long time… and I know it’s going to change everything. I do not want to say I want to hope for the best because honestly I don’t know where that choice will take me… it’s one of those things that fall into the category of the unforseen.

I can’t even begin to summarize the events that have happened this year. It was another rollercoaster of ups and downs. As usual though, I am grateful for the people that I have met and the experiences that I take with me. I never regret meeting one single person in my life because I always learn something new from different people. If I feel I’m lucky enough, I will become a better person because of that.

Once again I stand before the brink of a new dawn… once my choices and changes are made, I will write down the year that I knew would change me… 2010 …… I didn’t expect this out of you… but am grateful for what transpired… so far I can’t say it’s over… there is still some time and I feel much more will change… I’m quite frankly looking forward to it :D